love notes to my Lord

My Beloved LORD, There's a grief that comes when we finally surrender ourselves to Your ways. There's a wave of grief that washes over us in that moment, and it's heavy, continuous, and painful. I don't hear about this experience as much as I would like, though, and, as You know, I am experiencing this now. It's not a grief pointed towards the decision to surrender to You but a grief for what surrendering requires. The grief is from what could have been but will not be, or wh